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Droewyn


July 31st, 2013

(no subject) @ 11:04 pm

I posted the below as a response to seanan_mcguire's recent post about "fake geek girl" gatekeeping, and I wanted to post it here for posterity.

I have.... a memory issue. When I was a small child, around five or so, I had a very few books to read. My family didn't do libraries, so what I had was what I had. I was in the habit of reading all of the books on my shelf, in order, before starting again. One day, one of my relatives (I don't actually remember who) asked me what I was reading. It was Nancy Drew #1, The Secret of the Old Clock.

"Haven't you read that already?" The relative demanded. "Why are you reading it again?"

I realized I had done something very wrong. I didn't know why it was wrong, but it obviously was. So I stumbled out something like "Well I don't remember what happened in it!"

That seemed to satisfy the relative. I internalized the message that it was okay to re-read things as long as you didn't remember them, and I set about training myself to not retain what I was reading in order to be a Good Girl and not have my books taken away. Or something.

So... yeah. Unless I'm making a deliberate attempt to fix whatever it is I'm consuming in my mind, or I've read/watched it so many times that I basically have it memorized anyway, it just disappears. Broad themes, characters, and certain scenes stick around, but the minutia is totally gone. There's no way in hell I'd "pass" a Real Geek test even on some of my One True Fandoms, because my brain is literally wired to not hang onto those tiny stupid details.

Except for the Sea Ponies song. I watched the crap out of that TV special, and I can still sing it from memory!
 
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From:starcat_jewel
Date:August 1st, 2013 04:58 am (UTC)
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There are, apparently, people who believe that reading a book more than once is inappropriate; the reasons given vary, but none of them make any sense. No one should ever allow one of these people to comment on a child's reading habits. If I Ruled The Universe, it would be forbidden by law for them to do so.
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From:droewyn
Date:August 2nd, 2013 06:20 pm (UTC)
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The thing is, I'm sure that the conversation wasn't important to the relative in question. They were probably just being curious or making conversation. But not being other was such a big deal to me even at that age that I latched onto it as being incredibly important.
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From:thewayne
Date:August 3rd, 2013 11:06 pm (UTC)
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Some people will see a movie once or read a book only once. I think if it gives you pleasure, what's wrong with seeing it multiple times? I have a DVD collection of movies that I (A) like and (B) will watch again. It's a good thing to have a good video library when you're sick.

Right now I'm re-reading the Vorkosigan series by Bujold because I like them.

Droewyn